It’s been a while. I guess you can say.. I’ve been dealing with so many things, and I’ve been a bit down lately. Y’all know I hate posting when I’m down. 😒 so not my thing.
You know, I’ve been pondering a lot. Why I even write these entries and place them into our bloggerverse. I often consider changing my whole platform, and moving back over to my blogger-view site and becoming strictly a journalism lady. 🤔
As I awoke this morning, I realized maybe the reason you all come back and read my cheesy posts is because … It’s relatable. 🙄 I either pulled that out of a Cracker Jack box, or my rear end. You be the judge.
leave a comment down below. Let me know what you think. Would you be perfectly content continuing to read my little tidbits on motherhood, a writers life, my poetry, my short stories (when I’m feeling them),, and the struggle that comes with it all? Or would y’all be more interested in being part of my story coverage, at Blogger-View🤔 ummm or do both? Should I just stop rambling all together and stick solely with poetry?
You’re the ones reading it/putting up with it. Your opinion matters
Let me know in the comments guys.
Holidays are hard. I can honestly say, I’m not too fond of them for several reasons:
- Christmas is and always has been about the birth of Christ. We parents buy our kiddos gifts, and Santa gets the credit? Nah! So not fair.
- I really miss my parents. Their absence is much more prominent during the holidays.
Funny thing about that 😶👆 My kiddos are on vacation from school until the 8th of January. As two full-time working parents, that has become quite a difficult scenario for my partner and I.
It’s not easy being a parent. It’s definitely not easy being a parent who lacks a support system.😔 I have to admit that makes me pretty angry, upset, sad, disappointed, and… Just… A giant roller coaster of emotions. I can’t just leave my kids at grandpa and grandma’s house for the day, like most parents can. Ugh! that irks me… Just a little bit. We do our best to make do, and make it work as best we can, but you all know life if full of mishaps. Because we lack a support system, when those mishap hit… They hit hard. Do I sound like I’m complaining? 😱
Did I mention my eleven year old just left town and will be living out-of-state with her dad for the next three years.? Yeh… 😏😏 she already misses me tho. 😜😍
Ahhh the glorious concept of co-parenting. We spent an hour fiddling around on google hangouts and for a small moment, It didn’t feel like she was gone at all. We took comfort in our laughter, and sheer utter dorky-ness.
Voila! I realized that as long as I had my kiddos in my corner, life will alright.
Yes! Even with the pain, the loss, the void, the hardship, and the struggle. EVEN when their being stinkers and driving me MAD … Your children truly are the sunshine that brightens your day.
Value them, appreciate them, treat them as though they are mature and responsible… Well wait… Hold your horse… Not extreme, simply empowerment. For that, they will grow up to be/make mature and responsible choice/decisions.
I still believe that despite my struggle, I stand before you today… Keeping it together because of those certain concepts, morals, and ideas I was not only taught but had ingrained.
Anyhoo… Hope this was helpful.
See ya on the next one….